All is vanity, vanity, vanity...

I am impressed (depressed, maybe?) with the utter temporality of what I just got done doing.

Writing essays for college applications, which probably will only get looked at once, and even if they do get me scholarships (which is doubtful, but possible), It will be money, and nothing more.

Maybe the only thing you can really get out of this sort of thing is learning. I could get all the scholarships in the world, and blow an Oxford education partying in the pubs.
It's really kinda lousy when you turn 18 and suddenly realize,
"Shoot, I have to be responsible for myself now..." It isn't all it was cracked up to be, y'know.

Maybe learning is all you can really get out of life, I don't know...

Learn to Love learning, for those two are all that really counts.
(nice catch phrase for a personal motto, eh?)

Now Abideth Faith, Hope, and Love, but the Greatest of these is Love.
(now THERE's a motto for ya'... :-P)